Aurora 2024

Madeline Davis

Journal of a Madman

JOURNAL,

I have just bought you as a way of documenting the terrors I am plagued with. I find them to be gruesome in nature, and I need some way of expressing them. I need to tell it to someone else and though you are just a book, it is better than keeping it all inside. I need some way of getting it all out. What is causing these terrors, I have an inkling but I won’t talk about it now. There’s not time for that now. What matters is this, I have these dreams that I am lying in bed, and the ghosts of people I once knew pour in through my window. People I once loved and dreamed with. They flood the room like bright moonlight and they fill my dreams with fear and regret. They spill through my subconscious like spilled milk and I cannot escape them. yours, V.C I write again, and yet I find that my situation has not changed. I am still plagued by the fears that I have tried for so long to escape. I am afraid for my life at times. When the agony comes barreling towards me like a freight train, I must duck and run for cover, as I was used to, but this is different from the descent of bullets. I scream and it is not nearly as loud as the voices. They haunt me, there are so many of them, and they haunt JOURNAL,

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