Aurora 2024

Madeline Davis

I would’ve loved her from the moment I woke up to the moment I closed my eyes at night. For every day until the end of time, if she would’ve let me. I could’ve loved her until Hell itself froze over and I would’ve been content to be doomed to any fate God or the Devil inflicted upon me if it meant being with her. She was my distant lover in the dark, with eyes like deep pools of brown velvet ecstasy, I would’ve swam in them until I drowned. I would’ve followed her to the ends of the earth, and happily so. It was not to last, and I now curse the fool I had once made of myself. What else is there to say? I loved her with every nerve and blood cell in my body and life had other plans for the two of us. One day, someone will read this and pity me. I think that is the worst fate of all. Even worse than the one I am facing now. I am nothing if not a broken husk of a man, but it will all be better soon. I will leave you with this; “Sometimes surviving can be the worst fate of all”. I remember so many people, who are forever the same age. I am decrepit and broken now, there is very little left of me and it will never come back. I am going to join Rachel, and Edward, and Richard. I am going where it is always May and never December. I am going to the place I should’ve gone to when the rest of them did. I can’t talk about it anymore right now. V.C JOURNAL,

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