Aurora Magazine 2020

Aurora

Loneliness Is Emma Taylor

Loneliness is standing in a room full of opportunity and s t u m b

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n g over your words. It is neglecting your emotional wellbeing to uplift another. It is heart racing, fingers tapping, feet pacing, getting too close and pushing yourself away to avoid rejection. Loneliness always earns the bronze. It eats, sleeps and breathes fellowship but does not receive an invitation to the party. Loneliness is constantly offering assistance and being turned away. It is eager to be desired but too anxious to admit. It is talking too fast and interjecting at the wrong moment. Loneliness is deteriorating self-worth, disposability, and detaching yourself from those you adore when the truth ulti- mately comes out. Loneliness is not an emotion, it is a lifestyle. It seizes joy, steals affection, disconnects itself from promising thoughts. Loneliness is, until one day it isn’t. t o o s l o w not enough

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